I was browsing through Pinterest the other day, and stumbled upon this quote. It said:
“There is not enough room in your mind for both your worry and your faith. You must decide which one will live there.”
At first, I was thinking, oh hey, I kind of like that. Push out the worry, welcome the faith. But then when I took the time to think about the implications… I just wasn’t quite sure I agreed with it.
See, I don’t like to worry, but I’m a worrier by nature. I get it honestly. Occasionally I can brush things off my shoulder, but more often than not I let the insignificant become significant. Not to say it’s all insignificant… some things truly are worth my thoughts. But I would admit to letting my head hurt and heart race over things beyond my control, or within my control yet what I don’t see as manageable.
And what I’ve found is that in that spot, in the heat of the moment when my worry is overwhelming, that’s where I find my faith.
My worry causes me to be weak. It causes me to be pushed beyond my comfort zone and boundaries into that sweet spot that is what faith is made of. Faith is acknowledging your worry, acknowledging your anxiety, and then believing that your God is bigger than alllll of that. It’s choosing to seek him despite that worry, despite whatever doubt it may cause.
If I could have faith strong enough to not let worry even phase me, that would be amazing. But I’m human. I’m surrounded by this world and it’s pressure. Worry does get. me. down. But because of that? It also gives me a chance to rise above. It gives me a chance to intentionally give something to my Lord. It encourages me to trust him, to let him carry me.
“So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
Matthew 6:31-33 NIV
“And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 NIV