“Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10
Isn’t it funny that when you are sick, everything can wait? This past week, that happened. I came down with a bug that left me useless. Work, emails, simple tasks, even at times food had to wait. I was down for the count. I knew that it all could be put on hold; it wasn’t necessary. My health mattered more.
How come we can put life on hold for a sickness despite whatever may be going on during that time, but we can’t do that for the Lord? By we, I mean I.
Oh, I have lessons to plan for this week? Well this has a deadline, my devotional doesn’t, so it can wait.
You want to hang out? Okay! Your faith overflows, surely that is good for me. Surely this counts as spending time with the Lord.
Don’t get me wrong- being diligent with your work and being in fellowship with others are truly great things. But how often do we really, really just stop. And be. And draw near to the Lord. And let him talk. And listen. And seek. And ask. And allow him to permeate to the innermost corners of our heart, to the every crease in our mind so that he can never escape our thoughts.
Why is this something that is so difficult to do? Granted, it may not be difficult for you. If that’s the case- tell me all your secrets, now. But for me, it seems like everything else in life can come first. I know God is always going to be there, of that I have no doubt. Yet I let that be an excuse to live life first. To be a moving shadow. It’s like I don’t seem to get that I’m not really living life unless he’s with me every step of the way. At least, I’m not living it to the fullest.
My dear, I don’t know how to fix that. I’m not writing this with an answer. Part of it might be to kick myself in the behind and make myself try. Or to find what works for you. I know it all comes down to intentionality, even self-discipline. And I know this relationship isn’t an easy one to maintain. If I can stop everything to work on my physical wellbeing, then surely I can stop just something to work on my emotional, mental, and spiritual wellbeing. It isn’t optional in this relationship; even Jesus had to do it.
So darling, I challenge you, and I challenge myself (because I don’t know about you, but it’s always easier to know you aren’t fighting this battle alone) to stop. Stop wearing yourself thin and stop pouring into work and just stop life, so that you can truly live. Because he’s waiting and ready and really wants to see a little bit more of you.
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