per·se·ver·ance: steadfastness in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success.
For one of the first times, I have recently felt as if my blog was actually a job. As in, chore. Unwanted work.
It is a job, technically, and I treat it as such. But you know what they say – when you love something, it doesn’t seem like work. More often than not, the work that I put in I see as progress. Dedication. Effort that will garner a result.
But not so much this week. It felt like a J-O-B job. It was around 7:30, and I was thinking of what all I had ahead that night. What I should get done but knew I wouldn’t. What I needed to prioritize in order to grow. That dreaded little word bloggers all cringe to analyze, because it’s a never-ending and completely individualized concept.
Unless you’re a blogger, you probably don’t realize that a blog like mine and so many others out there can take hours. Every. Single. Day. I typically spend a minimum of 5 hours per day working on it, and that’s no exaggeration in any way – that’s a minimum. I see midnight daily.
All that to say that generally speaking, I enjoy all of it. I take delight in the relationships, in the creativity behind writing and photography, in the studying and researching, in the promoting. So when I don’t, I have those rare moments of how. How do I keep doing this? How do I grow so slowly? How do I pick and choose what’s best? How can I let myself take a break? How could that harm my growth? How.
When you love something, when it makes you a better person, it takes work. And there will be days when you want to quit. When it doesn’t feel all that enjoyable and you have to push yourself to take the next few steps.
But then you will. You’ll push yourself, and you’ll see the why. Why it’s worth it, why you do what you do. Why you can’t let yourself stop. You’ll be rejuvenated. You’ll be encouraged and motivated once again.
If you can find the Christian who admits to never having to push themselves toward the Lord, I’d sincerely like to meet them. Find the Christian who hasn’t had to work at this thing called faith. You can’t.
A relationship, any relationship, is work. No doubt a relationship built on the both the fiercest of loves and the most disobedient lover will require more work than most. Even when it isn’t what you’d choose to do – especially when it isn’t what you’d choose to do.
When you love something, when you know it betters you, it will always be worth it.
“And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character; and character, hope.”
Romans 5:3-4 NIV